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Signal to Noise
By Jon Lebkowsky
APRIL 13, 1998:
Carla Sinclair is former co-editor of bOING bOING, aka
"The World's Greatest Neurozine," editor of the book Net Chick,
and author of the cyberculture thriller Signal to Noise. She's been married
for years to Wired associate editor Mark Frauenfelder and was recently the
subject of an interview in Axcess, along with her sister, porn star Christy
Canyon. She used the South Park/Bay Area/Wired milieu as background for Signal
to Noise. Some reviews of the book played hip by pointing out the 'real' counterparts
to Carla's fictional world: Signal, the magazine where the protagonist works,
is a take on Wired, and Going GaGa (the actual name of bOING bOING
co-editor Gareth Branwyn's zine) is bOING bOING. Despite the references, the
book borrows less from Wired and more from Raymond Chandler, Elmore Leonard,
and Carl Hiaasen.
Austin Chronicle: Carla, let's get right to the red meat: That magazine, Signal,
sounds sooooo familiar... Could there be any resemblance to a real magazine?
And is Going GaGa really that, or is it kinda like a zine we both knew and
loved so well...??? Fess up: you did borrow from real life, right?
Carla Sinclair: I don't think I could write anything without borrowing
from real life! So yeah, there's a lot of RL [real life] snatching going on in the
novel, obviously from the goings-on in South Park, San Francisco, but it's certainly
not a roman-a-clef, as everyone likes to say. I mean, I don't really know anyone
who was kidnapped and taken to a trailer park after gambling at an online casino.
So even though Jim Knight, and all my other characters, may resemble people
I know IRL, they're twisted, diced, and reassembled into fictional folks who
follow a fictional path. I was chuckling to myself as I typed out the story, in the
same way I do when pulling a prank. Creating Signal's characters reminded
me of plopping people in front of one of those wavy carnival mirrors and capturing
the distortion on paper.
AC: It's obvious that you were writing about Wired and bOING bOING
and people that we both know. So the more interesting question is how you decided
to write a novel... is it something you always wanted to do? Do you plan to write
more of 'em?
CS: Yes, I'd always wanted to write a novel, but since I'd never done it before
(and never took creative writing classes in school) I was really afraid to try. But
I always like changing directions, and as I'd already written magazine articles and
nonfiction books, and co-edited my own zine, it was time I try something new - creating
a piece of fiction. I think subconsciously I decided on a thrillerish type of story
because I'm a pretty hyper person and I needed the story to move quickly to keep
up with my nervous energy. I've started a new novel, another "thriller"
(if I must categorize), but this one takes place in Hollywood. I think it'll be a
while before I finish it, however, because I'm also working on a nonfiction book,
which I think I should finish first.
AC: How was writing a novel different from the nonfiction projects you've worked on?
CS: Oh, it was very different, which surprised me. I started writing an outline
of the whole story, the way I do with nonfiction. Then, each morning I'd write a
micro-outline - that is, an outline of what I'd write for the day. But unlike nonfiction,
which pretty much follows a course of facts and opinions that are planned in advance,
fiction takes you places you may never have imagined. It was so exciting, because
I never knew where my fingers would take me! I'd start off following my blueprint
for the day - the micro-outline - but then I'd end up way off track, and I'd find
my protagonists stuck in some weird predicament or a new over-the-top character would
suddenly pop into the picture, and I'd think, Wow, when did I write this? Where does
this fit in the outline? It's like you fall into a trance and your fingers run with
the story and then you wake up a few hours later and find a whole new story in front
of you. So every morning I'd have to reshape the mega-outline, incorporating the
new direction I'd taken the day before (and sometimes, consequently, having to come
up with a new ending). Then I'd write a new micro-outline, knowing I probably wouldn't
follow it, but at least having something to kick-start the day's work. For me I found
it's important to be structured enough to have a direction so that everything falls
into place, but it's also essential to be flexible, to allow the creative flow to
take over. There's a fine balance between allowing yourself to run wild and knowing
when to pull in the reins. Chaos versus structure. I need both to write fiction,
whereas with nonfiction it's much more structure.
AC: Jim in your book represents the typical new-media journalist type, the
kind of guys that were plentiful at Wired. Did you know anyone similar to
Jim... anyone who went through a life-changing experience and came out the other
side with values? Have you ever feared that you would go to bed one night with Mark
sleeping beside you and wake up with somebody like Jim in his place? Or, to rephrase
the question, have you feared that you and Mark would fall into a soulless corporate
lifestyle by association with the Jims and Jerrys of the technojournalism scene?
CS: LOL - what a scary thought, waking up to find Jim beside my pillow! Although,
of course, there is a little bit of Jim in all magazine worker bees, digi-genre or
not. And when we lived in S.F. Mark certainly was transforming more and more into
a Jim Knight on a weekly basis. It was frightening for me, especially since we were
so free before he got the job at Wired, living in Los Angeles as zine publishers,
throwing huge bashes at nightclubs, zipping through life without any higher-ups (execs,
bosses, advertisers, whatever) telling us what to do. (We had saved enough money
from the sale of a house to live this lifestyle.) Then Mark got the job at Wired,
we moved to the Bay Area, and suddenly we were both frantically working seven days
a week, around the clock, for months on end without a break. It was ugly. I hated
it! bOING bOING kept me as busy as Wired kept Mark - now that we were
trying to become a "real" magazine and were accepting real advertisements
I constantly had deadlines, and as a one-woman show, it was deadly. But to answer
your question, yes and no. Yes, we did fall into a somewhat soulless lifestyle for
a while - we never had time to kick back and groove on the pleasures of life. But
I also knew it wouldn't last forever. Even though I didn't see a way out for quite
a while, I knew that eventually I'd figure out a way to break the chains and get
the hell away from South Park. Don't get me wrong, South Park definitely has a pulse,
a beat that can invigorate creativity and a sense of being in the center of the universe.
It's just not for me. I'm too reclusive for all that dog-eat-dog hustle-bustle digerati
energy.
AC: Wow, I don't think of you as a recluse! Do you really prefer to stay at home? Or do you just like to move kinda sloooowly?
CS: I know, I'm a pretty good actress, aren't I? ;-) Maybe I'm not a recluse in the strict sense of the word, but I'm a definite homebody,
spending all of my work hours and a huge chunk of my free time at home. I'm painfully
uncomfortable with schmoozing or chatting with strangers at parties, or even chatting
offline with people I know mostly through e-mail. I wish I were better at that kind
of stuff (but I think I can fake it pretty well when I have to).
AC: You wrote some pretty violent scenes for the book... did they freak you out?
CS: No, not at all. I enjoyed writing them. Got my adrenaline moving. Of course,
if the situations were true it would freak me out, but as a writer it was fun. Now
this is going to sound really weird, but Jim's vulnerability in those scenes was
actually a turn-on to me, made me like him better. I actually had a crush on him
by the end of the book.
AC: You did a good job sustaining and pacing the narrative... did you study novel form or consult with other writers, or did you follow your instincts?
CS: Thanks. :-) I followed my instincts, but I would like to study fiction writing
before I finish my next novel. There's so much to learn!
AC: It would've been interesting to read more about Jim's transformation between the last S.F. scene and the climax. Do you think you'll use the same character again?
CS: Not Jim Knight exactly, but I'm sure I'll create similar characters - it's
a safe way to have crushes.
AC: How long did it take you to complete the book?
CS: Seven months for the first draft, which I then sold two months later to Harper.
Then they wanted 2/3 of the book completely rewritten (new thugs, new location -
they were originally kidnapped and taken to Costa Rica - and even a new set of circumstances
in terms of why they were kidnapped) and they wanted all of that to be completed
in two months. While I was pregnant, mind you. It was pretty intense there for a
short time.
AC: Did you base that weird trailer park on a real place?
CS: No, the trailer park was made up, but I once did a documentary on a mobile
home park as my thesis in grad school, so I had something to work from. Mobile home
culture is fascinating to me and it would have been fun to have gone into more detail
about "Love Park," but I don't think my novel was a detail-oriented kind
of book.
AC: Why didn't the publishers like the original thugs and location?
CS: They thought the thugs were "too clichéd," which they may've
been, but Mark and I really liked them. They were two Armenian brothers with huge
mustaches and bushy helmet-shaped hair, a dumb-and-dumber kind of team, but really
nasty too. And then they had a fat, handsome, charismatic boss named Cookie who was
sociopathically evil. My editor didn't like Costa Rica because he thought the book
should be "domestic," that it should take place in the U.S. I like both
versions but I think my editor was smart in his suggestions.
AC: You and Mark were editors and publishers of bOING bOING, which at
one point felt like it was going to become a "real" magazine - however,
you've scaled back to a limited-circulation zine. Were you disappointed to let go
of your ambitions for the magazine? Have you thought of reviving it as a commercial
project?
CS: No, we're not disappointed at all. It was a choice we
made. I could have continued running bOING bOING in L.A. the way I did in
S.F., as a small magazine. Financially, it paid for itself, which is all we really
needed. But it took up all of my time, seven days a week, since it had to
come out on a regular schedule to please the advertisers. I hated that! The fun of
doing a zine is that there are no timelines, no advertisers to worry about, no
rules. Zines and the Web are both anarchistic mediums, which is why they turn
me on so much. But when bb was a "magazine" it got to the point
where we were reviewing music we didn't particularly care about just so the record
companies would give us some money. I felt like bb had slipped into a straight
jacket. Aaaargh! Finally we had enough. Now I can make more money writing books,
and have more fun doing bOING bOING on the side. Actually, Mark was in charge
of our last issue, #15, since I was so busy with my book.
AC: I heard a funny story about a reading you did recently where there were
a lot of questions about your writing process, and you said something funny about
writing best after you've smoked a big fat joint. Can you talk a little bit about
what it's like doing readings and book tours, also a bit about coming from fringe
culture into a more mainstream presence?
CS: Music really helps with the writing process as well. I thought I'd like readings
and touring better than I do, because again, I'm a lot more uncomfortable speaking
in front of crowds than I'd realized. I wasn't like this when I was younger! But
I think becoming a writer kind of tweaked the way I process thoughts, so now I think
better with my fingers - when I write - than on the fly - when I speak. I always
think of what I should have said to someone's question or remark after the
reading! I have had some great readings though. The best are when the audience participates
in the conversation, and the topic veers way off course, and we've suddenly created
a stimulating salon atmosphere talking about everything from genetics to the tao
of surfing, rather than just me pontificating through a microphone about my book,
or whatever. I still consider myself more on the fringe, but I guess being published
by HarperCollins makes people believe I'm "commercial" now, or mainstream.
Oy.
The thing I've learned most about stepping on the border of the mainstream is
that suddenly people treat you differently... either with gooey-eyed adoration or
with ugly, bitter contempt. Either way, it's as if you're not human anymore, not
part of the gang, and you start thinking about how people perceive you, the image they have, which is so different from the real thing. You start worrying about
stupid things like how your next project will influence that image. It takes the
fun out of writing, because it takes you outside the creative flow. Makes you watch
your creative process from some place outside yourself, which is a horrible way to
work. But I've decided to try to ignore the noise and just do what I want to do.
At least that's my goal.
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