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Totalled Recall
Memory takes a holiday in Margot Livesey's latest novel
By Chris Wright
MARCH 6, 2000:
Climbing the stairs to novelist Margot Livesey's Cambridge
apartment, I was expecting the worst. She had called me that morning to tell me
she'd been in an accident the previous night -- a New York cab in which she had
been a passenger had rear-ended another vehicle. On the phone, she said
something about "teeth" and looking "a bit strange."
At the risk of sounding unsympathetic, this seemed almost fitting. An author
hurts her mouth in a car accident in the midst of a tour to promote a book
whose plot is set in motion by a car accident that renders a woman unable to
articulate her past -- it's a very Livesey-ish twist. Her four books to date --
three novels and a collection of short stories -- have been smart, unnerving,
and even comical in their use of this sort of grim irony.
Her books are also suspenseful -- Livesey hits you with a What next? on
almost every page. So it also seemed fitting that I should find myself
wondering, with some apprehension, what exactly she meant by "a bit strange."
Whatever you do, I think to myself, don't laugh.
As it turns out, Livesey's injuries are not as grave as I'd imagined. Besides a
small cut on her lower lip, and an almost imperceptible lisp, she shows little
evidence of her taxicab trauma. She has an open, friendly face and a head of
wavy dark hair -- certainly not a look you'd call "strange." But then, Livesey,
46, is as good at defeating expectation as she is at building it. Which is
precisely what makes reading -- and meeting -- her such an interesting
experience.
"I like E.M. Forster's remark: every book should have a mystery to it," Livesey
says, relaxing at a table in her sunny dining room. "I really aspire to that. I
want to write something that will make you want to turn the pages, that will
have, if you will, an entertaining surface but also have darker preoccupations
and themes."
Livesey is one of those writers whose work hovers between literary fiction and
psychological thriller. Reading her, you don't know whether to rub your chin or
bite your nails. In this regard she is often compared to such highbrow
mood-makers as Ian McEwan and Patricia Highsmith. But there is a quirky wit to
Livesey's work that is all her own. For all its eerie intrigue and
psychological depth, it often reads like a gothic comedy of manners. "I do
aspire to be funny," she says. "I don't know if that comes across to other
people."
In person, Livesey is remarkably good humored, albeit in a deadpan way. She
speaks with a crisp English accent -- which is in itself a bit strange, given
that Livesey is Scottish. Or maybe it's not so strange: Livesey has spent a
good deal of her adult life in England, and she continues to divide her time
between Boston and London. Beyond this, her accent says more about her social
and educational background than it does about her geographical origins.
Born in a quiet village on the fringes of the Scottish Highlands, Livesey had
what might be called a solid upbringing. Livesey's father, the son of a
clergyman, was "a tweedy figure" who taught math and geography at a private
boys' school. Her mother, Eva, died when Livesey was two, an event that Livesey
has described as a defining point for her. "I have no memory of my mother," she
says, "and yet I am aware of her influence in my life."
Despite this early loss, Livesey led a sheltered childhood; she attended a posh
academy for girls, which, she says, slipping into a slight Scottish burr, "had
a Miss Jean Brodie quality, including the ghastly uniform I had to wear." In
her teens, she crossed the border into England -- "a big deal" -- to study
philosophy and English at York University.
True to the family tradition, Livesey seemed headed straight for Tweedsville.
It wasn't until she left for North America, in her 20s, that she began to stray
from this course. "I was dating someone who lived in Toronto and I started
coming here to be with him," she says. "You could say I came here for love and
stayed for work."
Livesey has often written about the crazy things people do for love, and her
early years in Canada and America -- as a not-so-legal alien trying to find
employment -- might very well fall into the "crazy" category. For years Livesey
held a string of dead-end jobs, including a stint packing incense in what she
describes as "a Hare Krishna factory." She started working there because they
offered free lunches, she says, and quit because those lunches came with
compulsory prayer. "I lasted four days."
All this is a far cry from Livesey's current role as one of America's most
popular suspense writers. Her swift rise to success is partly due to author
Richard Ford, who brought her to the attention of an agent, who brought her to
the attention of Gary Fisketjon, editor-at-large at Knopf. Fisketjon was
immediately struck by Livesey's originality, and snapped her up. "Her work
isn't simply psychological suspense," he says. "At its heart it's very, very
literary, and that isn't something many people do these days. She does her own
thing."
The first book published by Knopf -- Criminals (1996) -- was actually
Livesey's third. It was, says Fisketjon, "the book that put her on the map."
Set in Scotland, Criminals is part meditation on crime and passion, part
thriller, and part quirky caper. The critics loved it. "Spellbinding," raved
the New York Times. "Masterly." And it wasn't just the critics. For a
breakthrough book, says Fisketjon, "it made a very good showing" in sales.
Livesey's latest novel, The Missing World, has fared just as well.
"Adroitly paced, meticulously plotted, and increasingly suspenseful," gushed
the influential trade journal Publishers Weekly, "the novel transcends
its genre as psychological thriller." Again, the public has been equally
enthusiastic. After a little more than three weeks in the bookstores, the book
is in its third printing.
The Missing World, which is set in London, opens with a young
couple -- Jonathan and Hazel -- arguing on the phone, "although anyone who
happened to hear them might easily have failed to detect the fury that lay
behind their pragmatic sentences." Everything seems a bit gray and ordinary at
first -- he's griping about a leaky roof and she's griping about his griping --
until suddenly, mid snit, Hazel breaks the news that she was recently hit by a
car. And then: "Hazel's steady speech swerved, slewed across several lanes,
hesitated at the guardrail, and plunged off into a dark field. 'Elephants,' she
whispered. 'Caracals.' " A few pages later she goes on to add,
"Barasingha."
Hazel says a lot of this sort of thing through the course of the book, largely
as the result of a nasty knock to the head she received in the accident. But
babbling, frothing, leg-flailing fits aren't the only consequence. As her
doctor says, "Hazel, as far as I can determine, has lost the last three years.
Like a large suitcase, she just put it down and walked away. Or, more
precisely, she put it down and a thief came by."
In some sense, the thief turns out to be her boyfriend. Jonathan and Hazel, we
discover, are estranged -- he having committed some unspecified transgression
-- and it quickly becomes clear that he sees Hazel's memory loss as an
opportunity to fix the scoreboard. "He and Hazel would have their life together
over again, the good parts without the mistakes, yet with the benefit of those
mistakes," he thinks. "You can't change back she had said, but you could, you
could."
At first we're actually rooting for Jonathan. Who, after all, wouldn't want the
opportunity to atone for past sins? But our sympathy doesn't last long. There's
something creepy about the way he fawns over Hazel, more so when you realize he
is thrilled to bits by her condition. "All that was needed was for him to join
Hazel in amnesia," he thinks. But this guy is suffering from a lapse of decency
rather than memory -- a kind of moral amnesia.
Being given the chance to tamper with the past -- it's a wonderfully original
conceit. But obsessive love, and the dark deeds it incites, is a recurring
theme in Livesey's work. Jonathan, an insurance-claims adjuster who keeps bees
for a hobby, is very much an ordinary guy -- until, that is, his love pushes
him to commit diabolical acts.
"What really interests me," Livesey says, "is what someone who can pass for
ordinary will do when presented with extreme circumstances." She doesn't set
out to be creepy in her work, she insists, but adds, "Extreme circumstances
take us to some pretty creepy places." In The Missing World, for
instance, Livesey brings us along for one of the weirdest and most unsettling
rape scenes you'll ever read.
But the book is more than a twisted love story; it is also a thoughtful and
subtle exploration of memory and the role it plays in our sense of self. There
are emotional memories, physical memories, false memories, falsified memories,
instinctive memories, factual memories, memories that rise like acid
indigestion, and memories that soothe like a mother's hand.
"We tend to think of memory as this articulate thing," Livesey says, "something
we can give voice to. But there are all these other kinds -- for instance, you
can remember how to do repetitive tasks, like ride a bicycle or make porridge.
I think that my sense of how the novel had to be written came from realizing
how complicated memory is, that it couldn't be polarized into some binary form,
that it had to be more cleverly refracted than that."
Complicated is right. You don't need to read the bibliography at the back of
the book to realize that Livesey put her time in at the library for this one.
But the bibliography is there, filled with titles like The Anatomy of
Memory and The Mind of a Mnemonist -- a fact that might strike dread
into the heart of your average fiction reader. "One of the hard things about
doing research," Livesey admits, "is that you get so excited about it you can't
believe that everybody else won't want to know everything you've just learned.
I'm sure I just bored all my friends to tears."
Actually, far from being bogged down in detail, The Missing World is
riveting -- a stay-up-half-the-night, take-to-the-bathroom kind of book. Part
of the reason for this is that Livesey keeps us guessing. What dirty secrets
are in Jonathan's past? Will he be able to keep them from Hazel? Will she
remember and kick the bum out? What next? All the while we get the sense that
we are heading toward something sinister. What this something might be is
revealed to us in much the same way that Hazel's memories come back to her: in
trickles, burps, half-tones, dead-ends.
They also come to her as she moves through the world. Indeed, a major theme in
the book is the intimate relationship between memory and place. At one point
this relationship is made explicit as a character talks about an ancient
mnemonic device called the memory palace:
It was a trick the Roman orators used. You stored paragraphs of a speech in
a familiar house. Then, when you had to give the speech, you walked through the
rooms and there were your sentences, all nicely lined up in atriums and
frescoes, waiting to be uttered.
Many of the characters in The Missing World are grappling with
memories, trying either to escape them or to reclaim them. Not coincidentally,
many of them are involved in housing pickles, too. Jonathan, for instance,
fails to tell Hazel about an apartment she had moved into when they broke up.
Only by luring her back into their "home," he thinks, can he control Hazel's
memories. That gives an ironic twist to one character's assertion that "only
forgetfulness can set you free."
The past may be a foreign country, as the saying goes, but that doesn't always
help you evade it. If you really want to get away from your past, you move to a
real foreign country. This certainly holds true for one of the novel's most
intriguing characters, who sometimes seems to speak for the author herself.
Freddie -- a London-based African-American roofer given to bouts of inertia,
vertigo, and angst -- has abandoned his comfortable middle-class life in the US
to escape a mysterious event in his past (again, a car is involved). "Living in
a foreign country is a kind of disguise," he explains.
"With Freddie, I was able to use some of my experiences, but in a roundabout
way," Livesey says. "There's something about living as an expatriate. You don't
have people coming up to you who remember you as a child, or a younger person.
You don't have anyone around to correct your version of the past. Your version
of the past becomes the version. America is the place you come to
reinvent yourself, to better yourself, forget your past."
Is this what Livesey was doing when she came here? "I think that's certainly a
feeling that's not unfamiliar to me," she says, laughing at her own
evasiveness. "Clearly, someone who writes a novel about amnesia in the age of
the memoir is not going to tell you how much of it is autobiographical." She
will admit, though, that "my coded autobiography was what made it possible to
write The Missing World."
A large part of that code is encrypted in a down-at-the-heels actor named
Charlotte, another character for whom memory and place are hopelessly
entangled. Charlotte's efforts to escape her painful memories have not so much
set her free as cut her loose -- she wanders the streets of London, all but
homeless. "She's middle class," Livesey says, "but you feel as though at any
moment Charlotte could fall into something else. I'm fascinated by middle-class
people who are in danger of falling through the cracks."
For a long time, falling through the cracks was more than just a fascination
for Livesey -- it was a real possibility. In the mid '70s, Livesey was as
aimless as Charlotte, if not quite so destitute. She toiled in restaurants. She
worked at a dry cleaner and in a pharmaceutical factory. ("I never thought
before how when you buy a bottle of 100 aspirin there are 100 aspirin in
there," she says. "I found out.") Most bizarrely, Livesey worked as "one of
those people who sells roses in nightclubs and restaurants." It was, she
laughs, "an awful job."
Meanwhile, Livesey was writing short stories, without too much success. "I
didn't really know how one could get to a place where one could put writing at
the center of one's life," she says, "rather than have it be this passionate
hobby." Though she published the odd story (and some of her early stories were,
she allows, very odd) in various small magazines, it wasn't exactly a living.
If this wasn't quite falling through the cracks, neither was it the kind of
career path you'd expect for an educated, talented, middle-class Scottish
lass.
Then one day, as Livesey describes it, she had a sort of epiphany: "Somebody
said to me, you know, there's this thing in North America, they teach fiction
writing in universities and colleges, and they might hire someone like you to
do it." Though she found this a "staggering idea," Livesey gave it a shot. "I
suddenly realized that there were other possibilities besides asking people how
they want their steaks done," she says.
During the next 15 years, Livesey taught in Seattle, Cleveland, and Irvine; at
the Iowa Writers' Workshop, Carnegie Mellon, Brandeis, Boston University,
Tufts, Williams, "and probably a few more that I'm forgetting or repressing."
For the past three years Livesey has been the writer in residence at Emerson
College. "I teach in the autumn and get the spring to write and faff around,"
she says. "So it works out very happily for me."
Things are very rarely tied up so neatly, or happily, for Livesey's characters.
So far, redemption and salvation have not been her trademarks. The Missing
World, in particular, ends on a cruelly hollow note.
"I often think my books are going to be more optimistic," Livesey says.
"Or they feel as though they're going to be more optimistic when I start them,
then they get darker as I keep working on them and revising them. I'm not
certain whether it's because there's a dark streak in me, or because life
suddenly seems more impossible than I imagined."
In person it's difficult to imagine Livesey having a dark streak. Possibly life
is just impossible. Here she is, after all, having to give an interview the day
after a car crash. As she leads me to the door, Livesey tells me she has a
dental appointment later in the afternoon, after which she's flying off to
California for another reading and another round of interviews. At least it'll
be warm, she says, laughing. "Poor me."

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